YFriday, March 31, 2006
i dunno y but dese few daes has been super super bad... haiz... blah blah blah. the main pt? i am going to give up already. i cant be bothered liao.
how well do u exactli noe mi? wtf. i think im askin a stupid qn la. obviousli u dun noe mi well. duh. wait a min. y shld i even bother sia? is not lyk wateva loh.
dere r so mani thins dat i dun lyk but wat's de pt of saein? i will b changin u... i think dere's jus no pt. we r too far apart le. rmb bout de thins i said? yar. it jus seems dat dere's no change. i dun wan u ta change jus cos i dun lyk it but i wan u ta change cos u wan ta. is lyk startin u so nice. den now? u die le ah? wat happen ta all dat u sae? dis is y i sae i feel insecure. u alwaes sae thins but ur jus unable ta do it. im jus not dat simple a gal. i dun wan wat normal ppl wan.
seriousli, do wateva u wan la. i cant b bothered le. i cant control u wat. u shld noe how ta think le la. n i dun lyk ppl ta force mi. fer goodness sake, stop saein dat im fierce. u nv see mi fierce b4 loh. i jus dun lyk it wen ppl dun keep to deir words. n of u wanna smoke, fine. go ahead. everi1 is askin mi ta ask u ta quit. but hu m i ta u? it's okie la. i cant b bothered le. if u wanna continue ta smoke den go ahead loh. if u think dat by not smokin in front of mi n smoke socially behind mi back is considered quittin, den fine. go ahead. by all means.
i told nic le loh. is lyk u dun even noe mi well. wat rites do u hv ta dae wat u sae ta mi? if u can sae dat means u r supposed ta noe mi well. n i jus hate it wen ppl concentrate on deir work n dun reali bother bout mi. is ur work more impt dan i? if it is den okie loh. i reali got nth ta sae liao le. actuali, i oso dunno wat's wrong wif mi. wo hen hao wan nong meh? y is everi1 doin dis ta mi? i had enuf of it fer once le loh. i thot u were serious wen ros sae all dat. she told mi not ta play n stuffs. fine. i didnt. but now? i even told jun dat i'll gif u a chance. but i think i'll hv ta think bout all dat i've said all over agn.
i m feelin so luan. if i hadnt promise ta quit drinkin, i will b goin tml le. but den i think cos of de long term effect of alcohol i beta not go le la. i reali dunno wat ta do loh. i think i'll jus ferget bout everithin. i wun bother ta take mi revenge cos dis tym i reali cant b bothered. i shall jus leave it as it is le.
some things in life will just never come true. this is why living in fantasy is better than living in reality.
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YWednesday, March 22, 2006
he can just go and die! i mean it loh. one thing i hate most is for people to lie. what is he trying to do? want to lie to mi? okay. fine. i never did trust what you say anyway. let the game start.
don't play? i won't. but this does not mean i will not take my revenge. everyone or rather my close friends knows that if they hurt me they will have to pay the price lah. if this is what i mean to you and that you think its okay to lie to me then fine. who bothers. i won't be cold or whatever. i will be normal. and trust me. this revenge i will take.
lets see who will win at the end. so what if you have people to back you up? its none of my business. you are serious? over my dead body. its okay. i still have the whole lot of time to play. i will have it my way in the end. just you wait and see.
this price you will pay. even if it costs me my life.
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YMonday, March 20, 2006
haiz... todae's reali confusin loh... in de mornin i so hyper den afta recess i lyk so diao... dunno wat's goin on sia...
watched a korean show todae... lost confidence in everithin... haiz... so poor thin... dere's 3 ppl... A, B & C... A originali lyk B n B n C are best frenz... alwaes go everiwhere together de loh... den A in de end lyk C n i think B alreadi lyk A at dat tym... so in de end both B n C die... serves A rite... how can he lyk a gal den lyk her best fren den her best fren still betray her... haiz... dunno y de shows all lyk dat de... nxt tym i gonna watch jap instead of korean liao... so ke lian... =x
saw him online todae den tok but feels so diff lei... lyk stranger lyk dat... wonder if he'll still rmb mi bdae... n jun jie was de 1st ta send mi a bdae sms... hehe... gan dong gan dong... thx. =D
i kinda feel bad bout it loh... wat i did ta him b4... but i jus dun lyk bein controlled... now i think im gettin wat i deserve liao loh... i feel so dotz. dunno wat's wif all de emotions loh...
he's not mi bf. wat's wif de ppl ard mi sia... i jus dun think it will happen... is lyk afta de show todae... i dun think so loh... im beginnin ta lose confidence... i think wat ~~ sae is rite... mayb i might b givin de wrong impression? but i dun wanna think bout it as to yet... o's r comin... wanna concentrate 1st loh... let de rest decide fer itself... tym will tel everithin... all i think i can sae is dat he's far frm mi dream guy... i dun lyk ta b tied down... n i dun get de security... so... yar... he's jus not dere ba... bein a cantonese jus makes thins easier wif mi grand aunt but most impt is mi wat... wat's de pnt... i dunno la... i think afta de o's den sae loh... i doubt it will last oso... saein will wait and stuffs r all jus a pack of lies... ta mi la... i rather u prove it wif ur actions...
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YSunday, March 19, 2006
dis sch holi reali slack loh... nv do anithin de... hehe. =P
haiz... todae cal ppl oso no one ans mi cal sia... so ke lian... den cant sms... haiz... i think i reali nxt mth no fone le... haiz... ppl dun miss mi k? =x
is lyk tml mus go back ta sch liao loh... it feels lyk afta o's le... dun even wanna go back sch... den tml got test but i oso dunno wat test izzit... hu cares... it's jus math... didnt do anithin de whole holi... so even if i noe wat test izzit oso no diff de loh... haha.
i decided ta b guai liao... afta sch reopen i'll go fer all de remedials... hehe. hope i can tahan loh... LoL. haiz... so sian can... can sum1 jus cal mi now??? ARGH! den both nic n jun sae will cal de... u 2 ah... pro loh... lyk dat... ferget mi... how can? i so nice de den u all lyk dat... haiz... oops. =P sori... bleah. hehe.
k la... i go bathe le... den lata go watch tv... yeah mi!!! LoL. I'M CRAZY! = )
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YWednesday, March 15, 2006
haiz... todae de chinese oral... i die le la... wtf... haiz... i dunno la... dun care le... haiz...
had ice-cream todae... wen ta bugis... haiz... sian la... den i felt so tiao... jun's kinda pissed off... can tel la... but i lyk dunno wat ta do loh... stuck in de middle... haiz... hope it'll b okie ba... jun, 1 mth. promise. wat's de pnt if mi frenz r gonna b lyk dat rite...
i think de rest of de daes at least fer dis mth i'll die liao... haiz... LoL.
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YFriday, March 10, 2006
i wonder wat is holi fer wen it's alwaes packed wif hw... dont de chers get tired of markin? haiz... so sianz...
jun has been sad dese few daes... due ta him... i dun reali noe wat's goin on but i hope she will b beta soon... =) nic's kinda sianz dese few daes... i think... ta mi la... fer mi, im reali tired... i wan a long long slp which will keep mi awae frm dis world fer a dae at least... im sick n tired of everithin. probs which i dunno how ta solve? y cant life b simple? haiz...
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