YFriday, March 31, 2006
i dunno y but dese few daes has been super super bad... haiz... blah blah blah. the main pt? i am going to give up already. i cant be bothered liao.
how well do u exactli noe mi? wtf. i think im askin a stupid qn la. obviousli u dun noe mi well. duh. wait a min. y shld i even bother sia? is not lyk wateva loh.
dere r so mani thins dat i dun lyk but wat's de pt of saein? i will b changin u... i think dere's jus no pt. we r too far apart le. rmb bout de thins i said? yar. it jus seems dat dere's no change. i dun wan u ta change jus cos i dun lyk it but i wan u ta change cos u wan ta. is lyk startin u so nice. den now? u die le ah? wat happen ta all dat u sae? dis is y i sae i feel insecure. u alwaes sae thins but ur jus unable ta do it. im jus not dat simple a gal. i dun wan wat normal ppl wan.
seriousli, do wateva u wan la. i cant b bothered le. i cant control u wat. u shld noe how ta think le la. n i dun lyk ppl ta force mi. fer goodness sake, stop saein dat im fierce. u nv see mi fierce b4 loh. i jus dun lyk it wen ppl dun keep to deir words. n of u wanna smoke, fine. go ahead. everi1 is askin mi ta ask u ta quit. but hu m i ta u? it's okie la. i cant b bothered le. if u wanna continue ta smoke den go ahead loh. if u think dat by not smokin in front of mi n smoke socially behind mi back is considered quittin, den fine. go ahead. by all means.
i told nic le loh. is lyk u dun even noe mi well. wat rites do u hv ta dae wat u sae ta mi? if u can sae dat means u r supposed ta noe mi well. n i jus hate it wen ppl concentrate on deir work n dun reali bother bout mi. is ur work more impt dan i? if it is den okie loh. i reali got nth ta sae liao le. actuali, i oso dunno wat's wrong wif mi. wo hen hao wan nong meh? y is everi1 doin dis ta mi? i had enuf of it fer once le loh. i thot u were serious wen ros sae all dat. she told mi not ta play n stuffs. fine. i didnt. but now? i even told jun dat i'll gif u a chance. but i think i'll hv ta think bout all dat i've said all over agn.
i m feelin so luan. if i hadnt promise ta quit drinkin, i will b goin tml le. but den i think cos of de long term effect of alcohol i beta not go le la. i reali dunno wat ta do loh. i think i'll jus ferget bout everithin. i wun bother ta take mi revenge cos dis tym i reali cant b bothered. i shall jus leave it as it is le.
some things in life will just never come true. this is why living in fantasy is better than living in reality.
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