YFriday, April 28, 2006
2 yrs le... y suddenli agn? i m sum1 hu nv gif a 2nd chance... u noe dat... haiz... as much as i wan ta, i cant... sori...
i was walkin hm afta goin out wif de 2 ladies... den saw him... is lyk so shockin la... den ask mi ta spare sum tym... so in de end went over loh... but is lyk so mani thins happened out of a sudden... dat few hrs felt lyk mins... had fun laughin n crappin n stuffs... but den wen he slept, still look lyk a lil babi... i guess sum thins jus nv change... LoL.
i suddenli feel so confused... wat m i ta do? i wan out but at de same tym in... but he's goin back soon aniwae... his parents wan him back... wat ta do? cant believe in de 2 yrs become so guai... LoL. still as gentle though... hehe. =x too mani thins i wanna sae but i rather keep dem as memories... hehe. fer ppl hu happen ta read dis, plz dun ask mi hu he is. i wun sae de. =P
aniwaes, i think thins will still remain ba... miss u so much... hehe. i noe those r not de words u wanna hear... but smth else... i wun sae it de... its jus dis wae... bleah. xoxo.
nitez peeps. *floatin in dreamland*
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YWednesday, April 19, 2006
i dun feel lyk tokin ta u... jus get outta mi life okie? wtf? cant i not repli? cant i not ans? y r u controllin mi life? at first u said u'll gimme freedom... but now? it's all jus a pack of lies... wtf.
this fucking life is so damn fucked up. what the fuck? i dont need ani of this fucking shit. get the fuck out. no one gives a fucking damn.
i nv lyk ppl controllin. i do thins fer no reason. cant i listen to techno? ur prob ah? i dun feel lyk tokin ta u ur prob ah? is i dun feel lyk or u dun feel lyk? i dun eat cannot ah? nid ur permission izzit? wat de fuck.
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YFriday, April 14, 2006
todae might jus b one of de worst daes in mi life...
i spent de whole dae in front of de com doin wat? a stupid bio mindmap. wtf. y bother askin de class ta do a mindmap wen ppl lyk mi dun use it... wat's de pnt den? ta waste our tym?
i feel so sick la... my hands r cold n mi whole body is freakingly hot. n now, my world is literally spinning. i am taking so long just to type out a word. hate dis feeling. i feel so weak... i jus hope dat dere's sum1 right here right now ta help mi...
i think i beta stop writin le... i dun even now how ta continue in dis condition. everithin is jus spinnin.
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YTuesday, April 11, 2006
dunno y i jus feel dat dis world's in a mess all over agn... is lyk wtf. fer sum reason or another, i jus dun feel lyk doin anithin... kinda goin back ta de sucidal mood agn... nth in dis life is real i guess... dere r thins dat cum n go but few stay... i jus feel dat im all alone in dis big world wif no one ard...
mani thins happened recentli... i dun even noe wat's goin on... first it was jan n so soon it became april... n now de o's r comin... cant i hv a break of even a dae... i jus nid tym awae frm dis world... ta sumwhere where dere's no probs or wat so eva... i jus wanna get out of mi life... nowadaes i've been appearin quite hapi... but dis is not de real mi... i dun even noe y m i doin all de thins dat im doin... it jus seems as if sum1 has taken over control of mi...
i feel lyk dyin... life seems so meaningless now... i jus hope dat i hv de courage ta die... i jus feel lyk endin dis life once n fer all... HELP! i eva once promised mi frenz dat i wun ever think of committin sucide eva agn but now it jus seems dat it is back... mi life is jus ruined lyk dat? y mus it b mi? i nid ta get outta dis... is lyk tym n tym agn i feel dis... wen will it eva stop? wat is de cause of it? its happenin ta mi but yet i dun even noe a single thin bout it... i m reali sick n tired of dis kinda life... will sum1 jus help mi outta here? i dunno wat's goin on all over agn... i reali nid a long long rest frm everithin... i jus dun feel lyk wakin up... does dis alwaes happen wen i try ta face reality?
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YWednesday, April 05, 2006
de math comp todae was lyk damn sucky la... is lyk de ri ppl were super hao lian loh... sae de qns so damn easi n said ppl were stupid ta gif those kinda qn... den is lyk within 10 secs dey can finish solvin a qn... so pro loh... but den dere mus b sum stupid idiots hu r so proud. too bad loh... den is lyk one of de qns even came out in deir past exam papers. n dey lyk noe everithin la. i think dey lyk finish de whole AM txtbk wen dey r sec 2 or 3 loh... wat de... i sit behind dem is lyk quite stunned n oso fed-up... cos dis guy was lyk givin all sorts of stupid comments... is lyk i noe he ri la... but still, dun so proud can... haiz... dunno la... so tried frm de comp. os lyk i dun even noe how ta do most, infact, allmost all of de qn loh... haiz... de ppl reali damn smart sia... wat can i sae... mayb is cos i stupid loh... =x
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YSunday, April 02, 2006
this is gonna b one of de crazi entries im havin...
haiz... mi dream guy... LoL. he mus b sum1 hu cares bout mi, romantic, noes how ta cheer mi up, full of surprises, hv 6 packs??? (i alreadi said its mi dream guy...), showers mi wif lurve, takes de initiative n jus spend tym wif mi... LoL. all dis sounds so dreamy... if ever i can find a guy lyk dat, i'll reali ai si ta... not literally though. hehe
actuali, i jus feel lyk saein all dis... dunno y... haha. bleah =P
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YSaturday, April 01, 2006
i cant believe it. all u bother bout is ur work. wat bout mi? its over. it can jus nv b. u dun care bout mi do u. wateva. in dat case, jus leave mi alone. i dun understand y r u doin dis ta mi. is lyk all dat u've said, dun dey mean a thin? i dun nid sum1 hu can sweet talk but i nid sum1 hu's action is louder dan words. thins can jus nv b rite? dun bother. i noe u will nv b able ta read dis blog unless u sumhow or other find mi bloggie. dat's y i can write all i wan. but i noe dat if u find out, i think most prob u will hate mi fer life. but i cant b bothered.
i jus dun think u will ever rmb mi. everitym i sae dun nid ta cal u reali take mi words seriousli. dis is how well u noe mi rite? see? here's de prob. u jus dunno mi well enuf. wtf. i cant b bothered le la. u jus dun mean wat u sae. u alwaes sae smth but yet dun fufill it. den wats de pt of saein it rite? i jus dunno wat u think. i will nv understand rite? wateva la. i m too tired ta care.
everi1 noe dat i dun mean wat i sae most of de tym. i m not a direct person. its not diff ta cheer mi up or make mi feel touched. i actuali wan de simplest thin in de simplest wae. i m not ordinary but yet ordinary in a wae. y is it dat u jus dun seem ta understand wat i m tryin ta sae? i m too tired ta sae anithin n i dun wanna do animore thins. its all up ta u alreadi. dun even hope fer mi ta hint u animore. frm now on, everithin will b on u. i dun wanna do anithin animore. i m all messed up cos of u. i hate it wen dis happens.
de LiL pRinCeSs is all alone in de land of loneliness... can sum1 jus take mi awae???
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