YThursday, November 23, 2006
i really hate it when people say wait or when they always drag something... is like why must one wait? if everyone wait, then why is there the word 'now' and 'immediately'? why must people say 'i can do it later'? what is the point of waiting and at the end of the day, things don't turn out as expected and one regrets? life is not about regrets but chances... if you are going to do something today, what will be the worst thing that can happen? will the consequences be as drastic as one would lose their life? if no one risks, then none of us will get what we want.
maybe you waited too long. now that i am looking for you, you are no longer there. am i supposed to be lost? have i got to wait again till you are back or am i to start searching again? will you ever be back? is this the end? whatever the case is, i regretted my choice. but do you? are you really that heartless? what am i to do? i miss everything... too bad. i guess everything will have to come to a standstill at least for now until i sort out everything? i want to move on but everytime i think of what happens, this will happen to me. i need a break. i will go for the first 3 months of jc. hopefully being involved in something and doing something will take my mind off all these. having few more friends will also take me away from this? i might be starting anew once school starts. by the time you are out of army and if you happen to see me again, i promise that you will be the one regretting not me.
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YThursday, November 16, 2006
okie... im here agn... o's endin in 4 daes!!! yeah! = )
mani thins happen durin de o's though... ppl fall out, bonds became weaker, bonds grew stronger, etc... anithin u name can b seen...
i suddenli dunno wat to write... loss for words???
okie... wat i'll b saein nxt is of no link to dis post...
it's been lyk 3mths n im still feelin de same... but now no longer hurt... instead, numb... though tears still flow... i really still miss you i guess... maybe this is what people mean by you wont treasure things until you've lost them... i still dont understand how you bear to do all this... if im not wrong, this is ur last yr in poly rite? great... though i still dunno wat actualli went wrong that you had to cut all contact wif mi, but i still wish u all de best... i think this time, i will take a very long time to forget about all this... but i dont want to forget. this time, i'll burry it all within. i promise that if i ever happen to see you again, i will not be how i am now. i'll be much stronger than now. i promise. hope to see you live your life well. dont let anything that already happen change you. overcome it. thanks for teaching me this lesson. from now on, i'll never hide how i feel. no longer will i wear a mask to face this world. thankyou.
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