YMonday, January 22, 2007
omg. when i went here my first reaction was to cry. what the hell is wrong with me? i don't know.
someone sent me this msg saying "peter pan once said, think of a happy thought so you can fly... guess what? you make me fly." though it is a stupid message but a part of me actually hopes that you would send me this message. i feel so dumb. like stupidly waiting for something that won't happen.
i hope you won't read this blog even if i told you to do so. if you happen to come across this post, please don't carry on reading.
sometimes i feel so silly. when i re-read my posts, i feel so stupid. really really dumb. how can i scold someone so much and have my friends agreeing that i should not like a certain guy but in the end falling for him... omg. i think the stupid mess is starting again. mark is enough. not another one. but i think the only difference is that no one in a sense disagree to me liking mark. LoL. i feel lost, lonely and numb. so silly. i think this year's valentine will be a cold and lonely one. maybe everyone around me will just be working. i'll spend it at home then. unless someone calls me out. but i don't think anyone would. jj has his gf. my buddy no longer has time for me... *sobs* i don't think he will call. by that time i think his heart would most probably have gone to someone else. someone better than me.
wow. emo. LoL. how emo can i get? i guess worse than this. argh! fine. i really miss you. i think i've really fallen for you... haha. what's the point of saying all these? well... at least i won't regret not ever saying this and when i really lose you at least i can tell myself that i did actually say how i feel. but not to you personally. i don't think i will ever dare. besides, i don't think i will ever get the chance to.
ps. people, just shut up. since when was crying ever a crime? is it wrong for me to cry? *still crying*
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