YMonday, January 22, 2007
so funny loh... whether i like him or not i don't know. i am super confused can. argh! what's happening to me? LoL.
he's not really my dream guy... but i kind of do miss him once in a while... sometimes i just hope that he can just spend more time with me... i only think of mark when he doesn't do the things i hope he does. maybe because i am used to being held closely and having much attention... so when i come to think about it, i don't like mark. it's just that i sometimes hope he will do the things that mark did. on the other hand, i don't want to put my heart into this. i don't want history to repeat itself.is like if i really like him, i am just afraid that what happened between me and aric will happen again... i just have this feeling.
aric is back in singapore and as usual i don't know. i told him that it is really over. no point waiting. ever since the incident at orchard, i don't trust him. then this time i will really experience a christmas story... oh... the christmas story is nic's story... hehe.
so yar. i am stuck in this situation. how i am feeling i don't know. but whatever the case is, i don't think he wants to talk to me. maybe i have been given too much that's why i ask so much. on the other hand, action speaks louder than words. if someone really cares, his actions should tell the whole story. one will understand without hearing a single word. if you do things to show that you love someone, even without saying i love you, they will still understand because your actions have spoken for you. so i'll wait till he show some action before i can finally clear the confusion.
all in all, maybe i am weird. but i don't wait to be certain of anything first. my heart can't break again. too many wounds are still unheal. i need someone who can help me to heal the wounds and not break it again.
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