YSunday, January 21, 2007
nic, i miss u!!! so sad... dun get to see u... hope the two of us will be together during feb. don't want to be transfered. LoL. it will be boring. dat's besides de case though... main thin, i hate pauline!
it seems like i have been hating many people recently... LoL. who cares. life's getting more complicated.
talked to roy ytd. he's so blah loh... 'i won't say no to a possible relationship'? oh please. why give hope when it is not going to come true? haiz. don't bhb la... think everyone will fall gaga over you? oh my... HELP! the sky's falling. LoL. *ps. ppl hu read dis, don't tell roy. i think he'll kill me.* anyway, roy, if you happen to see this, relax. i'm not all serious though. just feel like suan-ing ppl.
i've not been talking to him for a long time. hope he's fine. made a deal not to think and bother about him already. so this will most probably be the last post about him. he should be fine with his gf. haha.
jun, the blue rose deal is off. i don't want to do that. no one will ever do that de la. it's just a stupid passing deal of a stupid 15 yr old. LoL.
oh yar. when i told him to quit on the 26 dec he told me to give him one month. the deadline is coming. wonder if he remembers and really kept his word. will i be disappointed again?
enough of everyone else... back to me. i think i've changed. never felt so empty until this year. realised that there is more to life than everything else. reality is really tough. i guess soon i'll fall back into fantasy. LoL. when the wounds no longer hurt, i'll be back to face reality. i need to heal everything. everyone whom i was once a toy to, i have decided to forget about revenge. i realised that everything is coming back to me. whatever you peeps have done to me, i'll forget and let go. usually i will hate them but now, forget it. i don't think i have the courage to do what i did before. i don't know why but yar.
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