YTuesday, February 06, 2007
im sick. physically and mentally. i think this work is like so whatever. i work from 1000 to 1730 only and i am like that. argh. i think i should really eat and drink water. maybe because i never eat the whole day and only drunk two sips of water ba. dotz. if only i have someone to remind me to eat and drink. someone to pamper me... haha. rah! i miss you... a lot... really. argh... great. i am not going to eat dinner even. i have no appitite. hope i dont really fall sick tml. still have to work sia.
you know what? i decided to give this blog a name. erm... i think it will be called 'xiao zhu' ba... haha. it's decided. you will be called xiao zhu. =)
i wish things could be like before. with you. to be held in your arms. though i get a little irritated at times, i feel so lost without you now. like a part of me is missing. i rather you talk to me... is a little thing really able to affect everything that much? how much do i mean to you? aiyah. i shouldn't rant so much. maybe i should just forget that everything happened. take everything as a dream? but when i pass the places we went before i will still stop to think. i never since then sat with nic at the walkway between the lifts. she would sit and i stand. to think of everything is too heart-breaking for me. i should heal the wounds and not hurt them deeper.
the tv should stop talking about valentines. i am so not interested. being alone. wow. thanks sia. nevermind. i think i should be used to it. sometimes i wonder when will i get a ring on valentines. i think that will have to wait till i am attached. long way ba... haha. maybe my tiao jian really too high. LoL. i think im starting to be emo le. better stop the rubbish. my headache and bodyache is killing me. argh!
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