YSunday, April 22, 2007
what is wrong with me? this is supposed to be a start of a new year. yet i feel so lost. it's only one week but i am already so mixed up. i should never have talked to you or ask you anything. i feel like i have just lost myself. am i really that vulnerable? why is everyone doing this to me? i just want to get out of this cycle. all i ask for is a little love. is that too much? i never wanted things to turn out this way. i suddenly miss you alot. i feel so alone now. i will never want to be stuck in this situation. i can't be alone doing nothing. my mind will run wild. i need a hug right now. but there is no one here. i feel like crying but can't. i need love. lots of it. hope for school to start soon. my mind needs to be occupied. can someone take my hand and hold it? guide me for the rest of my road. i can't handle anymore. i feel like resorting to the knife but i promised myself that i will not cut anymore. HELP. i need to get out of this mess.
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