YThursday, May 03, 2007
it feels so different. somehow i'm falling for him but i am afraid. will i fall again? will he guide me? i feel like asking him to let go. to not be here for me. because i fear that one day when he leaves, i will no longer be able to stand up on my own. i want to tell him how much he means to me and how much it hurts when we argue. but yet, what if it's all a dream? what if it will never be?
i think his opinion of me might change soon. maybe he might realise that there is more to me than what he expected. maybe everything will fade. but if it does, then i think i will be left to fight the feelings i have for him. i don't know how he will react after reading this post but all i know is that if things change, i will have only myself to blame. maybe i opened up too quickly. maybe i fell for him too quickly. i don't know. all i know is that i am trying my best.
maybe i think too much. i think i should just let time do the talking. for now, i just want to dwell in this. but... i still can't help wondering if it will last... will he ever be able to take my hand and walk with me?
oh ya... i did my LMS stuffs... guess what... i am an ISFJ."People of this type tend to be: cautious, gentle, and thoughtful; hesitant until they know people well then affectionate and caring; very literal and aware of the physical world; uncompromising about personal standards and easily offended; diligent and conscientious, organized and decisive." i am definately not easily offended though. OBJECTION!
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