YSunday, May 13, 2007
omg. i hate to bottle everything up. lalala.
fine. i think i might be falling for him. blah. but im going to fight that back. i don't want to be alone in this. it sucks. the feeling really sucks. pardon my language but yar... i know im supposed to focus on something else but yar... now i like things the way it is... being like the old times... is so fun... i think she likes him too... but she should just drop it. she likes him? will she stand a chance? maybe. but then... well... maybe in the future... but now, i doubt.
i wish you are still having the feelings... i don't want to be here alone... lalala. well... i guess it's always like that... i'll be waiting??? maybe... i don't know how long this will be here but i'll do my best to be fine... as long as i can see you and have you around, im fine...
i want to tell you that i really am falling for you but i know that your feelings are no longer there. what can i do? i miss those times but well... i think you will never have those feelings back? haha. i'll fight the feelings... i won't ever let you know. even if you still like me... because i don't ever want to hear you say that we are rushing into things again and everything that happened within the past week to repeat... but a part of me just want to tell you... i kind of hope that you will tell me that you actually still have feelings for me and that when you said that you don't mean what you say, you were lying... but i guess it will never come true... this is all just part of my dream... but i rather stay in my dream, believing that you still do like me... how foolish can i get?
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