YThursday, June 14, 2007
bring me home. back to you. i don’t want to live without You. You kept me here and didn’t give up. but yet i ignored You. You never let me fall. You are always here. the best and only thing i can ask for is You. thank you. if only i can run to You and give You the tightest hug, i will. i really want You now. let the fire in me burn once again. burn like it has never burn before. burn like how it burnt when i first knew You. when i first love You. i'm sorry for all that i have done. no words can express the feelings i feel right now. i am suddenly so lost. without You i no longer know how to walk. i want to hold You and walk with You now. please let me see the light. let me know what is right and what’s not. i want to come back. i want him to lose. i want to win the war. conquer him. be a light to You. to be Your little princess. i want to give this whole life to You. from now on, i promise that i will live every single second with You. i will no longer neglect You no matter what. let me win this. please. i know i made this promise many times already. but this time, it will really be the last. i will never break it again. promise. i will leave everything behind and live every second with You from now on.
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YSunday, June 10, 2007
haha. hmmm. with all the nonsense, let's add in some serious stuffs. LoL. okie... how should i start??? fine.
my prince will be someone who:
- is or willing to be a christian
- trusts me
- don't smoke
- is respectful
- loves me for who i am and not who am i
- is observant
- is caring
- dresses appropriately
- is romantic
- means what he says
- share his problems with me
- would be there for me
- is able to show me off to the world
- will prove that he loves me by what he does and not what he say
- will not be affected by what his or my friends say
- will always double confirm things that he hears about me, from others, with me
- keep fit
- gives me space
- knows he can count on me
- is hopefully a cantonese
- will cheer me up
- understand that i have a reason behind everything i do
- be patient
- will call me back even if i hang his call
- can withstand my temper
- practices hygiene and cleaniness *some people don't... weird*
- message or call me at least once a week? *unless i see him most of the time* i need to know im remembered =D
wow. seems like i have a whole lot of criteria. hehe. ok... hmmm. let's talk about me then... what will i do for him???
i will:
- make sure his relationship is a Chrst-centred one.
- want this relationship to be a long-lasting and serious one
- respect his decisions
- not expect the relationship to be perfect
- trust him
- not force him to do things that he don't want to
- be there for him
- face his problems with him
- be understanding
- not be controlling
- let him do whatever he wants, provided it's the right things?
- not neglect him
- do my best to cheer him up
- explain things to him when it is needed
- not doubt him
- not hide him from my family *not like some people i know*
- not ask why is it me of all people
- let him be around girls *they are just his friends. im not like some unreasonable people out there*
- not let him go *sounds good and bad. depending on how you see it =S*
- go out with him even if he's with his friends *sounds weird but i don't like being neglected so too big a group is bad for me = (*
- remind him that he is always remembered =P
-shower him with loads of love = )
- be proud of him =D
see how nice i can be! XD aniwae, it will b a long time before all these come true i guess. look at mi = ( *rotting* *looks into the mirror* *screams loudly* *sees a half rotting corpse* haha. LOL.
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dis is my 100th post! haha. lame? LoL. aniwae, life's borin now... no one wanna go out wif mi... *sobs* haha.
ok... let's talk bout de ppl ard me... well... recently, jun is sooooo in love wif sum guy in her sch... dawn's still on wif austin n she's goin bangkok. or gone? nic's gonna teack him... eugene is kinda down cos of wat i sae? not sure bout dat but he sure is down cos of her... vonne's feelin sick n i haven got de tym to meet her to see how she is n her schedule... my IAC n LMS is behind tym as ms sng didnt contact enkai n i cant reali b bothered bout LMS though. de huever tutor it is is borin mi in class... LALALA. ningzhi sae she wanna go out wif nic, mi n ros... ros n qg might be... i missed class gathering... yue's back... xin's bz... made a new fren named adrian? not exactly though... i think? jus eugene's fren whom he brought along to watch priates wif nic n i... poa yin was talkin to me bout his fren n cca stuffs cos he was BORED... im lyk de if onli bored den cal to tok kinda fren? T.T haha. nah. im fine wif it though...
ok... dat shld sum up my frenz? not a lot of frenz to tok bout though... haha. now back to me agn! hehe. im so full of me... now let's see... i've been goin on bout my prince thing agn... hmmm... ok. aniwae, i think it's reali true. lyk i've alwaes sae "my prince is somewhere out there..." so i shall just wait. wow. ok... haha. things will come. naturally. if someone really likes me i'll come to know about it... de guy will find a way to tell me... so for now, i shall jus wait. XD
enuf wif de prince stuffs. so now... wat's nxt? i think im gonna spend my holis workin out... i just lost 1 kg in 5 daes! yeah me!!! =D plannin to lose another 2 kg by de tym my holis end... possible? we'll see... = ) nic asks me to shuddup cos she's feelin fat... haiz. she shld jus exercise wif mi... LoL. aniwae my stamina is not dat gd... haha. ok... let's share smth bout mi dat changed... haha. dis post's gonna b long... jus feel lyk bloggin todae... dunno y. =S
well... i've cleared all de messes... but commitment still hv to wait at least a wk? i wanna dish out everithin n ferget de bad stuffs... : )
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YSaturday, June 09, 2007
im over wif de 6 daes n stuffs and everything... aniwae, reali felt bad wen i told de 'sista' bout wat i felt... haiz. lyk kinda dash his hope? reali feel guilty loh... though he said i made him realise thins but is lyk i still feel guilty... haiz. dunno la. lyk shld hv kept it to myself n stuffs... dunno. jus hope he will get her ba... den he wun b so sad. hehe. =P
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YFriday, June 08, 2007
it feels like eternity since i last saw you... even though i know it's it's just a few hours... i've never thought i'll say this but it seems like it's true... i miss you... i really do...
just hold me close, never let me go. i want that scent around me... i want you so... if only you know how much you mean to me... the signs are blur. i don't know what to do... if only i can get it out of you...
i love you. i hope you feel the same. i need you. i hope you'll say that now. i want you. i hope you'll ask me soon... just say the word and i'll say yes...
you never know how you made me feel... deep down inside i hope everything is true... it feels so nice to be... to be there beside you... it feels so right just how it is...
lyrics to a song that is running through my head... haha. composer? yours faithfully... LOL. out of point... not?
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yeah! exams are over!!! muahahahahaha. anyway, nic came out with some rubbish again... she said 2 mth... ok loh... then you will know that i am right and it will be a 9 out of 10... hehe. =P don't be nuts. i am not that good. who will want me? you mean stand where matters ah? then if i change place with you that means what? i like him? don't lame can? haiz. i'm right la. just accept it. and i am not living in denial... aiyah. like who will want me right... i'm fat and ugly... = ( anyway, main point: I WILL PROVE YOU WRONG AND SHOW YOU THAT I AM RIGHT! XD
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YSaturday, June 02, 2007
it's time i let go... really. it hurts more to be so close and yet knowing that i can never have you. anyway, i realised just today not long ago that everything in my blog came true. it really was never meant to be and it will be and it is? i am just worth 6 days... haha. anyway, ganbatte with your angel. she's a much better girl... XD anyway you like her so much... haha. wait. or is it love? hmmm. haha. when they are together i hope he will tell me... i'll move on... XD
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