YSunday, January 06, 2008
i realised something recently... it's amazing how you can like someone and act normally when he has a girlfriend but at the same time desperately making the feelings fade away and hoping that he will never find out because you don't want the current friendship to end like that. wow. what a long sentence. amazing! LOL.
anyway, he told me she liked him since the time we sat together. and that was like kind of after i started liking him. but yet he noticed her even though she is so far away. i am so near but yet it seems so far. i no longer am able to talk to him properly, be near him and so on because i just seem to see her around him and it seems like he doesn't remember the past that we used to have anymore. i feel weird. i still remember the times we had. even though they were short but still... especially the time when we went for dinner. =D we never managed to have the cup of hot chocolate at McCafe together...
now, he is with her. happy or not i really have no idea. but one thing i am sure is that i will never tell him how i feel. i am afraid of the outcome. i don't want to go any further unless i can be sure that if i tell him how i feel the end result is that we will be together... which i think, will not happen. but still, I CAN'T FORGET HIM. pig!
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